Christina Milian Says Marriage to The-Dream Was 'Hell'

Christina Milian has kept mum about the details surrounding her very public divorce from esteemed singer/songwriter The-Dream, until now. The 'Say I' songstress opens up about the messy split in the February issue of 'Latina' magazine, in which she appears on the cover.

Though news of the former couple's parting union hit the 'Net last July, Milian admits she and The-Dream still carried on in their marital relations, yet life was anything but sweet. "I tried to be someone I wasn't because I wanted my marriage to work," she reveals. "But ultimately, if it's not working, it's not working."

When photos surfaced of her ex-husband canoodling on a Caribbean beach with his assistant, Melissa Santiago, the 29-year-old was clueless of the affair. "I didn't know anything," Milian admits. "But looking back, my gut was telling me something was off. But I thought I could fix it."

Despite dealing with a bad break-up in the public eye, Milian, who's currently working on her as-yet-titled fourth studio album, has weathered the storm. "I've been to hell and back, but I survived," she says. The singer reportedly received a $4 million lump sum in her divorce settlement plus $5,000 every month in child support for Violet, the child the former couple shares.

"I learned a lot about myself this year," Milian states. "I learned what I can handle. I learned how much I can take. I learned who I am and what I will accept for myself and my daughter."